gilt trip


gilt trip

now i lay me down to sleep
so why don't i feel tired?
every time i try to write,
i feel so uninspired.
why do my senses leave me
when i get down to the wire?
when i play with matches,
i can never start a fire.

trash me

tear me

scar me

scare me

dash me

dare me

burn me

bear me

it's like wearing cement shoes
out into a river. (ophelia)
it's like luring your best slug
out into salt water.
it's like wearing a glass bottle
over niagara falls.
it's like learning how to swim,
while mothering a cannonball.

i am predisposed toward
water imagery.
i can't write single thing
and not mention the sea.
why do i feel like i need
someone who will mother me?
i need to fill in all the blanks
where i forgot to be.

trash me

tear me

scar me

scare me

dash me

dare me

burn me

bear me

it's like riding your big wheels
on a four-lane highway.
it's like dropping your pet worm
on a rain-drenched sidewalk.
it's like running in glass slippers
over freshly-poured cement.
it's like walking the tightrope
while holding up the circus-tent.

i have my vocation,
so i've learned not to ask why.
leave me stranded on the roof,
but tell me i can fly.
tell me that there's no escape,
it's doubtless i will try.
tell me i'm already dead,
i'll promise not to cry.

i have this obsession
so i never get enough
of silver string and sealing wax
and other fancy stuff.
i lost all my teeth chewing
on this tale; it was too tough.
don't twist your plot around me;
i will always call your bluff.

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